New York, I Love You

{HIYA!}

i know it's been awhile since i've written on my blog. but im just so busy being in GRAD SCHOOL and stuff. I went to NYC for fall break a few weeks ago and it was sooo much fun. I met up with some friends that are makin' it happen in the big city. i loved it so much. in years to come, i shall become a new yorker and wear black all the time...wait, ive already started to do that...

{liz}

{melissa and me}

{beautiful isabelle}

{shopping with liz}

{vic and is}

{melissa and the brooklyn bridge}

{HOTDOG!}



i'll try to write more often. i said try.

Love Thyself

Had to write a paper for my Art History Class. it's probably really bad but this is my ode to Lady Gaga:

In our third reading assignment, I decided to write about something that I have become fascinated with ever since I was a teenager: Lady Gaga. I am just going to come out and say: I am a huge Lady Gaga fan. She calls her fans ‘little monsters,’ well I am a ‘little monster.’ Specifically, I have decided to write on a specific photograph of lady gaga as her alter ego, Jo Calderone. Last year, lady Gaga tweeted “you will never find what you are looking for in love if you don’t love yourself” with a picture of herself as a man. It was her single cover for her new song Yoü and I, a song she wrote about her ex-boyfriend. Lady Gaga is known for her extravagant fashion and performances (she wore a meat dress), but dressing up as a man, whether for coping for something that had happen to her in the past or for a publicity stunt, is genius. It is a black and white picture of Gaga wearing a men’s white under-shirt and a black suit jacket. Her hair is short and coiffed/greased-out to look like something James Dean or Kenickie from Grease would do to their hair. She is smoking a cigarette and while the smoke is gracing her face, she is glaring off to the left of the camera lens. The most haunting thing about this picture is that her eyes are so menacing, yet she looks so tired: like a hung-over rock star. Even thinking about it now the picture reminds me of a video that Andy Warhol took of Bob Dylan in the early 60s: an uncomfortable singer who just wants to make music and get stoned. It is a persistent picture that has stuck with me for a while. The first time I saw this picture I thought, “this is the weirdest thing that I have ever seen in pop culture and, somehow, I am eerily in love with it.” This pop singer, who is known all around the world, is dressed up as some greasy man with a New Jersey accent (she gave a performance dressed up as Jo this past September). It is something that I have never seen in pop culture in the sense that it is so raw, but at the same time, it is all fake. Lady Gaga is not a man, even though many claim that she is. If we look sat other stars such as Britney spears, Katy Perry, Madonna, etc., we see that these women are the epitome of beauty and ‘superficialism.’ Yet, Gaga is unattractive, in this photo, wearing makeup not to enhance her beauty but to make her look like a beaten down man. At first it was hard to understand her tweet in conjunction to this picture: to find love you have to love yourself. Ummm ok. Gaga, you look like you are hung-over as hell and the night before you cut off all your hair in a psychotic-break rampage. How does this have anything to do with loving yourself? Over time, I watched the Yoü and I music video and watching her performance as Jo, I somewhat understood what Gaga was saying in her tweet: You have to be able to take all the good and the bad of yourself and embrace it with open arms. This is her alter-ego whom he admittedly calls himself an “asshole.” No one is perfect and that not one what one should be striving for in life. It is about loving who you are. I know this is extremely cheesy but it is true. For someone who has gone through a lot of heart break in my life (and I am only twenty two) it is nice to have someone who is a little crazy, yet has gone through the same stupid-love experiences. This picture is very meaningful to me because, not even looking at it, I can see it ingrained in my head of this beautiful woman that is dressed as a very real-looking man. People can have a lot of “ugly” inside of them, but you embrace it and strive for the “beautiful.”

It's super cheesy i know but I hope that you enjoy!

HAVE A FAB WEEKEND BECAUSE I KNOW I WILL!!!

YAY

Adventures of China Doll: Easter Sunday Edition

Well, it's another family holiday, and it's another time that i let China Doll come out of the box. if you don't know who china doll is, then you have never read this blog. shame on you! anyways, china had a really good easter. here's some pics:

{china found her egg}

{skydiving}

{guess who got a bike for easter? china doll.}

{china loves arizona ice tea}

{taking a nap with her eyes open...you never know when a ninja is gonna bite you in the ass}

{china is always parched}

xoxo

Easter Sunday

I'm gonna tell you a little bit about my easter traditions with my family. This yea, we celebrated it at my Grandma's house. we searched for our eggs and we trade it in for either a dollar or a crochet-hanger. this year the dog max ATE my egg and so they had to make an new one for me...stupid dog... anyways, then we ate a shiiii ton of food then we play another easter game. this one is called: pick out a plastic egg with a dare on it and get money. it goes from youngest to oldest and it's hilarious. one year my aunt had to jump rope 25 times for 5 dollars. she unknowingly peed her pants. priceless. then we eat some more and then we go up to utah state campus where we roll our eggs down a hill. i don't know why we do this, but i've been doing it since i was like, in the womb, so i never question it. this year we did all of those things, but, this easter sunday, i did the cinnamon challenge like an idiot. for those who don't know what the challenge is: you swallow a tablespoon of cinnamon. i threw up in front of my whole family. some were mesmerized other where horrified others were peeing their pants laughing so hard one even threw up. it is not recommended unless you want to lose a few extra pounds for summer. that's a lie. just don't do it. 

here are some pics from the glorious day:

 {ham,cream cheese, and onion snack; my egg; max in my scarf; the evil cinnamon)

(COUSINS!! me and dano doin grease lightening and my twin cousin, lindsey)

(morgan taking pics of herself and us doing the bunny hop)

{rolling our eggs}

lovely east sunday sunday. i hope yours was great, but mine was, like soooooo, much better.

xoxo

i almost deleted my grad acceptance email

 i was looking through my email inbox today and i was deleting random shiiii: iTunes receipts, vogue subscriptions, late library book fees, etc. and i accidentally deleted this thing called "grad school admission" it took me a second to realize that i deleted, like, i don't know, the most important message of my life (well, i'm probably going to get the actual letter in the mail but whatever), i retrieved it from the trash thingy and read it. IM GOING TO GRAD SCHOOL IN THE FALL!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG. excited. anyways, no one really reads this blog anyways, but i thought i would share it to the world. so, overall, i am a future graduate student. that is. if i graduate this spring. baha! well, goodnight cruel world. i've only gotten mayyyyyyybe 12 hours of sleep this past 36 hours so it's time for sleep sleep. 

xoxo

p.s. it is finally spring and it makes my soooo happy that i can wear shorts

something happens and i'm head over heels

i wish bjork would hug me and tell me everything will be alright

feeling a little down and listening to some bjork. my favorite song is "Hyperballad." check it out.

oh! happy new year. smiley face.

Adventures of China Doll: Christmas Edition

HELLOOOOO! this is kind of a late christmas entry put whatever. So, ever since i was young, my mom has been calling chinadoll or "china." she explains that i had beautiful porcelain skin when i was a bebe. my cousins to this day still make fun of me and my nicknames. so, my grandma got me a chinese doll for christmas. thanks grandma! i decided to have china do fun things around my aunt's house. enjoy!

{go broncos}

{she has a crush on harrison ford}

{kissing the dog}

{her favorite game is angry birds}

{her second is pool}

{she's so pensive}

{her noble steed}

{just a little martinelli's nightcap}

{"sugar drunk"}